Monday, June 29, 2009

Good Lord, Woman, get it together!!!!!

Yes, I am talking about myself! Journaling/blogging should be part of every day...there are so many things that happen each and every day - things that I need to remind myself to be thankful for!!

I started taking a few classes at a place called Harmony House Wellness. LOVE the name...need to get my life into a little more harmony!!! I am taking a nutrition class, a meditation class and an intro to Yoga class. My goal with all of these is to attempt to get my life back to 'center.' I am really not crazy about the person I have become - ride with me in the car for a few miles and you'll get your first clue!!!!! Not at all who I want to be...nor the attitudes and views I want to pass on to Zane. So, this is my start...

I'm also still looking for a new job. I *think* I have my job with the county for one more year but there are no guaratees after that. Westerville is taking their classes back for the 2010-2011 school year and they can decide to hire me or they could decide not to. No matter what happens, it will be a HUGE pay cut. I just get so sad that my experience is what keeps me from even getting an interview. If you have a baby, do you go to the store and buy the cheapest car seat in the store? Do you buy a new car the first year it's on the road? NO! With each of those, you want to know you are getting something that has been tested and put through numerous situations and proven its reliability. You can't get any of that from a teacher that has not held a full-time job. Do they all have to start somewhere? Of course. But don't schools owe it to themselves to make sure they are checking up on all the well-qualified candidates?? I just don't get it...maybe, somehow, they don't feel I am 'well-qualified.' Who just gets depressing...and then I come back to trying to get my life more centered so that I can be THANKFUL for what I DO have instead of always hoping for something better to come along.

Today I am thankful for reliable babysitters, a roof over my head, food on my table, clothes on my back and a WONDERFUL family. I am truly blessed to have all that I have.